ermm

Dua tiga langkah berlari
aku berpaling melihat rindu
bengis mukanya tidak sanggup aku

namun aku mula lesu
ku biar kasih berpaut di kaki
sayang bermanja di hati
sungguh aku tidak sanggup lagi

berdiri di tengah bendang
sawah menghijau
embun malam yang mampir
sejuknya sejuk sekali

bisa aku bicara denganmu? tegur rindu

pergilah jauh
kesian dan belaskan aku
tiada punya apa kecuali bicara lidah
kadang kelat dan kesat
lepaskan aku, aku merayu
kau mau aku sujud padamu?

sujudmu milik Tuhan yang satu, namun aku mahu hatimu

hati ini suda tidak mampu
jasad muda hati yang tua
pernah dibuang diinjak
masa terasa pendek dan singkat
jeling-jelingan yang membalas
aku tidak punya lagi hutang denganmu

dia mengirim aku padamu, hai teruna yang satu

aku bukan lagi milik itu
tahukah kau sang rindu
kisah di balik tabir yang belum labuh
aku bukan dia bukan itu

dia berdiri situ kaku
aku hulur tanganku
aku hulur tanganku
aku hulur tanganku

(22 julai 2002, recited 2006)

This piece plays a very important part in my life, i dont have a title for it, i still dont know why. i recited this poem at a function to a great and beautiful lady, whom i once deeply fell for. i wish her all of happiness in life, and i hope i will find mine as well. till next time.

Labuan

just came back from labuan (and kk) yesterday. the whole week at labuan was a bit dull. i was involved in a joint organized course with mmea & us coast guard. we sent 16 of our young officers for the 4days-course.

i was just sitting there listening to them mumbling something about something. but i did my part. i've already sent my report to the big guys upstairs. just a simple 5 page evaluation report on the course based on the findings from the participants.

the trainers are professionals from the u.s coast guards. they're a bunch of good n funny people. they called themselves the A-Team, consisting of Andrew, Abraham, and Amanda.

the food was great, (i think i gain a good 1kg), the hotel was so so la. my aircond the first 2 days were hangkang, (abis gas). told it at the reception early on, only on day 2 an electrician came and stuff the can with more gas. and then the bath tub was missing the cork (penyumbat) for the hole. i asked for a spare, they dont have one. i improvise, i used the glass cup. dapat la mandi berendam lama2 hua3.

later on i decided to go to the airport and change my flight to depart from kk. added another extra rm50. have the chance to meet some friends, miss u bebeh hahaha.

the last night at labuan me and a few of the young officers went to the hotel's pub, nothing fancy, just sitting down listening to some great music. they played sweet child of mine from GnR, the guitarist was awesome! 20minutes in, i called it a night and went upstairs to bed. tinguk tv lg bagus.

sempat tinguk wayang salt di suria sabah, buli2 la. sempat lagi dinner d aesha corner dan jesselton point. pack juga la jadual. flight pagi ahad si mamat (aka habibz jewels) tolong hantar p airport, flight smooth la, azmi ambik dekat erl, terus bawa dia sarapan, terus balik rumah sakit perut mau birak hahaahaha. punya banyak kain mau cuci. aah malas, ndapa mesin juga cuci heeh. till next time.